In my first blog post, I posted a survey in order to get an idea of topics I could write about to best fit the needs of my readers (if you haven’t taken that survey yet, click here to fill it out). The answers that have come in so far have been widely varied–some StuMinWives are married with kids and feel like they are failing the balancing act of being mom while serving in the church; some don’t have kids yet; some are working on degrees while others hold a full-time 9-5 job; some take care of the home while others work in the church alongside their husbands; some feel fulfilled in their calling as a StuMinWife, and some are ready to throw in the towel.
I remember the first time I was ever in a room full of StuMinWives and women in church leadership (there were about 60 of us together for a mentoring weekend). I had never felt more insecure in my entire life. I tried as hard as I could to not compare my own church situation, my marriage with my husband, and my own personal characteristics and qualities to the other women around me. In my mind, though, it seemed like someone always had a better church, a better marriage, had it all together as a wife and mom while doing ministry, or wasn’t dealing with personal feelings like the fear of failure or discouragement. I quickly learned that in my mind, comparison was real, and the enemy was using my own insecurities and comparisons with others as his personal punching bag. He was making me think worse about myself in order to keep me from fulfilling the plan that God had for my life at that particular moment. And the worst part about this? I was letting him do this without even realizing it.